the busy houseband!

he is amazing in a lot of ways!

grabe.

good or bad, whatever happens, there's really only one thing to remember: God loves you.

and nothing can really compare to that feeling, that believing, that knowing, that you are loved by Him. you can breathe it, live it, smile with it, get corny, get silly, get giddy, get so joyful about it! you can go through heartbreaks & losses and still feel that peace and joy in your heart.

think about this: if He loves you, then He will not let anything hurt you, right? ... unless He has something better planned for you. which is always the case, believe me. He will not let you get hurt unless there is something better planned for you.

so when the going gets tough and painful when you insist on saying i-want-iwant-iwant!!!! then maybe it's time to take a step back, let go of your hold on your emotions, and let Him lay His plans for you.

you're saying that what you're asking for is something He had promised to you?

well, if you're sure about that, if you're really sure that that is what He has told you, if you're really really sure that that is His Will for you, then... maybe you just have to wait. maybe other things need to happen first. maybe things are not ripe for the picking yet.

so for now, just learn to let go. let go and let God. we might have that favorite saying that "mother knows best". but the truth is: Father knows best. no doubt about it. and the best thing is: He loves you.

grr..

can't believe i got upset enough to blog at 5:44 am. and to think that this is my first blog in months!!! which makes me more upset. grrr. and i'm in-between periods so hormonal changes have nothing to do with this. aaargggh!!!  oh, well. i'd better go back to sleep.

what is the purpose of life?

to praise Him.

2 questions which nagged me today:

1. is it really possible for friends to be lovers (obviously, inspired by that link that i read)?
   
2. how long does it take for an egg to become hard-boiled? ('cause i boiled mine for several tennis sets between serena and justine and it came out... hard. too hard.)

tell me...

    who are you?
   why are you here?
   what are the things that really matter to you?

have i ever told you how much i love eric?

no?

that's okey. it doesn't matter. you don't really have to know as long as he does.

that's what matters.

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sometimes it really gets me thinking... how did i ever end up feeling this way?

i'm not complaining... i'm just wondering. you know, asking with a sense of wonder. like the same way we ask: i wonder why the sky is blue? (i wonder why i love you? yuck! grabe..! corny, corny! fetch me a pail! )

i'm getting corny and mushy..

the girl who thought that flowers and gifts are corny, and that endearments like honey and darling are yucky. the anti-american activist (imperialismo... ibagsak!) who didn't want to live in the states, and was not attracted to white men, just because, well.. just because she loooves smooth brown skin.

that girl (now i woman, i think. although it's not obvious with her hair) will soon be living in the states and might even become an american citizen (although she first cried at the thought) because she got married to an american of german-finnish descent, whom she calls honey, darling, honeybunch, lover... and she's loving everything about it.

now how did that happen???

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i don't know why i came up with such a mushy blog, which wasn't what i wanted to post when i logged on. must be a hormonal thing. (isn't it wonderful how modern science has given us these excuses for strange behavior? )

i am consumed by work right now.

and this time, yes, i will admit. i am a workaholic.

i want to write more about this but i still have a lot of work to do.

so, maybe, later.

kuwento-kwento lang po 'to...*

nasa labas ang isang madre at nag-aalaga ng bulaklak. may dumaan na tinderong muslim. sabi sa kanya:

"misis, bili na kayo ng bra".

"hindi ako misis, mother ako".

"pano kayo naging mother kung di kayo naging misis?"

* from my mom's joke collection

Happy Mother's Day to all moms out there!